Over six months ago, I wrote a post called, I Am A Binge Eater.

binge eating

In it, I talked about my struggle with binge eating. In January, I wanted the vicious cycle of bingeing to stop. I made a vow to myself that I would actively work on controlling my urges every single day.

It’s almost seven months later, I can happily say that I’ve kept the bingeing under control every day since January.

I haven’t wanted to binge ever since I made the decision to stop.

It’s incredible that I just stopped.

I know my circumstances are completely different than most. Some people just can’t stop the binge. I understand wholeheartedly.

Binge eating is a disorder that deeply affects many people in the world.

I am one of those people.

I wish my ability to just stop bingeing was just as simple for others dealing with the same issues. I’m a member of several Binge Eating Disorder (BED) groups and I read the stories of what others are going through. I feel for all of those people having to struggle to live they want but getting dragged deeper into an emotional black hole.

This disorder is so serious. It not only affects women but also men. Men just don’t talk about it.

I know that so far I’m on the road to recovery. But my recovery isn’t guaranteed. I can relapse at any time but I hope I never do.

I will work my hardest to keep it under control. I just keep my WHY at the front of my mind at all times before I act on anything.

Why do I want to indulge on that? Why is it important for me not to indulge? Why would I want to set myself back by bingeing?

These are just a few of the questions I ask myself. As I said before, my decision to not binge and my recovery is an ongoing situation.

There are others like me who have a harder time with their disorders.

Most of us hide our disorders. Physical signs are not always present. But it you know something is wrong with a friend, talk to them. See what’s going on with them.

Most people will either seek treatment or they won’t. Be educated on what their disorder is or isn’t. Don’t assume and don’t tell someone just to snap out of it.

That will only drive them further down the spiral.

Right now, I’m moving in the right direction. I hope to never detour but if I do, I will work to get back on track.

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Saturday was my 37th birthday. Yep, I’m, indeed, an old man.

working towards the future

I go through every birthday and I don’t really take the time to reflect on the past year. I wanted to do that this year and every year moving forward. Just give perspective on what I’ve been doing and working towards something.

I’m 37 years old. I ain’t no spring chicken. 40 years old is just three years away. That’s insane to think about that but it’s coming. It’s always in the back of my mind.

Over the past year, I’ve had a child. I trained and attempted to run my third full marathon. I competed in my first strength and fitness competition. I’ve also lost 40 pounds.

That seems like a lot for one year but it’s not a lot for me. I want more for myself. I always do. That’s just how my DNA is.

I don’t want to go towards year 38 and really only achieve little goals. I want to hit those bigger goals that are always in the back of my mind but I’m too afraid to pursue them. I’m scared to fail and that’s no place to be if you want to achieve bigger things.

I spent a lot of time on Saturday and yesterday just thinking about where my life is right now and the directions it could possibly go. I could be content with my life as it is right now. Just being comfortable doing the same things day in and day out.

Then, there are many other paths that I could go down. Those paths are super hazy because I don’t know the end goals so I have no clue how to even start them. I haven’t really truly thought about what I want as an end goal. There are so many things that I could possibly want to do but I don’t know where they will end.

Realizing where I want to end up is what I ultimately need to think about. Then I can reverse engineer how to get to the end.

I’m sure you may be like me as well. You know you’re not 100% happy with your life at the moment and you know you want to change. You’re just not sure how.

I wish I had the answer for you. I wish I had the answer for myself.

I guess it ultimately comes down to trying things, see what sticks and going for what you absolutely want in life.

That’s what I’ve done with every iteration of losing weight. You could do the same for every other part of your life. I tried different things and saw what worked and what didn’t.

I think we all have to have some kind of goals set. Something to work towards. Otherwise, you get stuck. You get comfortable. Then you start to regret.

Regret is something that I never want to live with.

I’ll have to take a few more days to figure out what I want to do to get to my goals. I’m 37 years old now. I don’t want to be still trying to figure out direction when I’m 40 years old. I want to be headed in that direction before then.

What goals have you set for yourself for the next year?

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Begin Again: On Hard Times In July

July 31, 2017

The month of July was a polarizing month for me. There were some good points and some bad points. It was just overall a really strange month. I can’t really complain though. It was a decent month. It could have been a lot worse. I spent the month celebrating a few birthdays of family and […]

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The Truth About Weight Loss Scams

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There’s been something on my mind a lot lately and I finally feel like I should share my opinion on it. I personally am overwhelmed with the amount of selling that I’ve seen on social media. In particular, I’m talking about Instagram and Facebook because that’s where I reside the most. So many of you […]

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In Pursuit Of The Priorities

July 19, 2017

I’m still alive. I promise. I’ve been out of my blogging routine for a little while. It’s not from a lack of trying. It’s from a lack of priorities. I have all good intentions of writing posts but I never actually make time to sit down to write them. Well, I spend time to write […]

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Why Am I Hungry: 5 Tips To Stay Satisfied While Losing Weight

July 10, 2017

Losing weight is already a difficult journey. You spend so much time working out and eating the right foods for your weight loss goals. Then you start to feel hungry. Even though you just ate an hour ago. Have you ever felt this way? I have. Especially when I was completely new to how weight loss […]

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Begin Again: Stay The Course

June 30, 2017

June 22, 2017 – June 28, 2017 It’s the last weight loss journey update for June and for the next four weeks. Yep, I’m always switching it up. I don’t want to make this updates repetitive so I’m switching to a monthly weight loss journey update instead of weekly. I’ll have more to talk about […]

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Too Much Of Anything Can Be A Bad Thing

June 29, 2017

It was a Sunday morning. Angela, Baby G and I went to the grocery store as we usually do. We picked up our normal grocery haul for the week and headed to the nearest checkout line. I unloaded our groceries onto the conveyor belt and waited for the cashier to scan them. And then something […]

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Begin Again: Enjoying Every Second

June 26, 2017

June 15, 2017 – June 21, 2017 It’s been my favorite week so far. I only say that because it was my First Father’s Day this week. But there’s another reason. I’ve been enjoying every second of what I’m doing to better myself over the last week. Let me explain. Food: I’m still going super […]

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Your Time Is Limited: Why Your Health Is More Important Than You Think

June 21, 2017

This post is different than anything that I usually write but I felt it needed to be written. Thank you for reading. I’ve been thinking a lot about life lately. Or rather the end of life. It’s something that you’ve probably never really thought about. Truthfully, I’m sure all of us avoid even thinking about […]

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