Hello, old friend.

It’s been awhile since we last had a conversation. Life lately has been an interesting one. It hasn’t been rainbows and sunshine. Even before Hurricane Harvey hit, I’ve been out of my element.

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It’s been almost two months since I’ve communicated with you. I’m sorry about that.

I’ve had a serious case of being unmotivated. Life was seriously on autopilot. I’m sure you know the feeling. You wake up. Do the same usual routine from sunrise to sunset. Then you go to bed to do it all over again.

That was my life for awhile. But that’s not what I want out of life. I want to actually live my life.

That’s what I’ve been doing. Then Harvey made life a little different.

I’ve lived in Southeast Texas for almost a decade without going through a Hurricane event. August 2017 was my time.

And it wasn’t fun. I was scared. I was afraid.

But through all of it, I’m thankful.

We didn’t sustain damage to our house. We were displaced for a short while but that’s small compared to what others had to deal with.

Harvey made me see that I should be a little more grateful for this life I have. Be grateful for the things I own and the relationships that I continue to grow.

I have a new perspective on life. I’m not on autopilot anymore.

I’m trying to live life a little more fully. Being a little more present. Life is short. There’s no reason to waste it on things that don’t matter.

Harvey got me a little more motivated than I thought I would ever get. I’m really dialing into this weight loss journey. At this point in time, I thought I would be about 30 lbs lighter than I am now. That’s not the case.

I’ll get there but it’s going to take more time than so actually thought.

If you follow me on Facebook or Instagram, I’ve been sharing my adventures in learning to improve on the jump rope. It’s my 6-month project currently. I’ve progressed from only being able to do one jump to jumping 100 times consecutively.

Practice makes permanent.

I’m just wanting to live life more fully. I appeared missing from life and this blog for awhile but I’m in the driver’s seat again.

How is your weight loss journey going?

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Over six months ago, I wrote a post called, I Am A Binge Eater.

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In it, I talked about my struggle with binge eating. In January, I wanted the vicious cycle of bingeing to stop. I made a vow to myself that I would actively work on controlling my urges every single day.

It’s almost seven months later, I can happily say that I’ve kept the bingeing under control every day since January.

I haven’t wanted to binge ever since I made the decision to stop.

It’s incredible that I just stopped.

I know my circumstances are completely different than most. Some people just can’t stop the binge. I understand wholeheartedly.

Binge eating is a disorder that deeply affects many people in the world.

I am one of those people.

I wish my ability to just stop bingeing was just as simple for others dealing with the same issues. I’m a member of several Binge Eating Disorder (BED) groups and I read the stories of what others are going through. I feel for all of those people having to struggle to live they want but getting dragged deeper into an emotional black hole.

This disorder is so serious. It not only affects women but also men. Men just don’t talk about it.

I know that so far I’m on the road to recovery. But my recovery isn’t guaranteed. I can relapse at any time but I hope I never do.

I will work my hardest to keep it under control. I just keep my WHY at the front of my mind at all times before I act on anything.

Why do I want to indulge on that? Why is it important for me not to indulge? Why would I want to set myself back by bingeing?

These are just a few of the questions I ask myself. As I said before, my decision to not binge and my recovery is an ongoing situation.

There are others like me who have a harder time with their disorders.

Most of us hide our disorders. Physical signs are not always present. But it you know something is wrong with a friend, talk to them. See what’s going on with them.

Most people will either seek treatment or they won’t. Be educated on what their disorder is or isn’t. Don’t assume and don’t tell someone just to snap out of it.

That will only drive them further down the spiral.

Right now, I’m moving in the right direction. I hope to never detour but if I do, I will work to get back on track.

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Chapter Thirty Seven: Working Towards The Future

August 7, 2017

Saturday was my 37th birthday. Yep, I’m, indeed, an old man. I go through every birthday and I don’t really take the time to reflect on the past year. I wanted to do that this year and every year moving forward. Just give perspective on what I’ve been doing and working towards something. I’m 37 […]

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Begin Again: On Hard Times In July

July 31, 2017

The month of July was a polarizing month for me. There were some good points and some bad points. It was just overall a really strange month. I can’t really complain though. It was a decent month. It could have been a lot worse. I spent the month celebrating a few birthdays of family and […]

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The Truth About Weight Loss Scams

July 21, 2017

There’s been something on my mind a lot lately and I finally feel like I should share my opinion on it. I personally am overwhelmed with the amount of selling that I’ve seen on social media. In particular, I’m talking about Instagram and Facebook because that’s where I reside the most. So many of you […]

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In Pursuit Of The Priorities

July 19, 2017

I’m still alive. I promise. I’ve been out of my blogging routine for a little while. It’s not from a lack of trying. It’s from a lack of priorities. I have all good intentions of writing posts but I never actually make time to sit down to write them. Well, I spend time to write […]

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Why Am I Hungry: 5 Tips To Stay Satisfied While Losing Weight

July 10, 2017

Losing weight is already a difficult journey. You spend so much time working out and eating the right foods for your weight loss goals. Then you start to feel hungry. Even though you just ate an hour ago. Have you ever felt this way? I have. Especially when I was completely new to how weight loss […]

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Begin Again: Stay The Course

June 30, 2017

June 22, 2017 – June 28, 2017 It’s the last weight loss journey update for June and for the next four weeks. Yep, I’m always switching it up. I don’t want to make this updates repetitive so I’m switching to a monthly weight loss journey update instead of weekly. I’ll have more to talk about […]

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Too Much Of Anything Can Be A Bad Thing

June 29, 2017

It was a Sunday morning. Angela, Baby G and I went to the grocery store as we usually do. We picked up our normal grocery haul for the week and headed to the nearest checkout line. I unloaded our groceries onto the conveyor belt and waited for the cashier to scan them. And then something […]

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Begin Again: Enjoying Every Second

June 26, 2017

June 15, 2017 – June 21, 2017 It’s been my favorite week so far. I only say that because it was my First Father’s Day this week. But there’s another reason. I’ve been enjoying every second of what I’m doing to better myself over the last week. Let me explain. Food: I’m still going super […]

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